maybe that’s what makes you want it more,the fact that you’re scared you migth fail,by that I can understand how badly you want it. so yes,risk it,there’s nothing really to lose than just a chance.
Like I said the rational side of me knows that and in all honesty I have nothing to lose cause pride is definitely not in my way it’s just the fact that I’m getting older everyday and I still haven’t achieved anything big in my life. Another failure would hit me hard but yes I have to fight this anxiety and go through it. Thank you <3